Tuesday, January 31, 2012

The last 20 months of my life have been the most wonderful I have ever experienced. They have also been the hardest. I've never felt more happy and sad...more exhilarated and exhausted...sure of myself and completely lost...all at the same time. For as long as I can remember, I've wanted to be a stay at home mom. I remember thinking..."When I finally get to stay home, life will be so much easier". And don't get me wrong, I know the stress I feel is nothing compared to what mothers who go to work everyday feel. Some days as I struggle to get my boys fed and dressed, I wonder how those women do it. They are truly amazing.

But I have learned quickly that being a stay at home mom and homemaker is not for sissies. And it is not easy (in any way). But I've also learned that there is no such thing as a perfect mom. I have found out that the moms I thought were perfect, make mistakes just like me. I don't know where I would be without these moms and homemakers who are willing to share their successes and failures.


So I admit....my laundry is NEVER done. Sometimes I let my boys watch one to many episodes of Mickey Mouse Clubhouse because it keeps them quiet. I've walked past the same stack of junk on my table for a week without putting it away. I don't always give my boys veggies at dinner because it's such a fight to get Caleb to eat green beans. I want to be super crafty, super organized, and super perky all the time. But I'm not.

Why a blog? 1.) Maybe I could be an encouragement to another new mom who is having one of those days. 2.) I often find a craft or recipe that I want to tell others about because I think it's super cool.      3.) Sometimes when I'm having one of those days, it makes a big difference just to share. This is really the main reason.

So at the risk of embarrassing my mom (who tried to teach me how to cook when I was younger but I refused to let her) and horrifying my mother-in-law, I would like to share my journey. And hopefully other moms will be encouraged to share their experiences, because we all have different ways of going about taking care of our families and homes. But every decision we make is out of love for the ones that God has given to us. I am so thankful for God's grace because, after all, we are all "hopelessly flawed".

"When you called me to be a mama, you didn't ask for perfection. But that with every breath, I'd point them to You."